It’s easy to feel okay
when the sun is shining warm
the roses are smelling full
and the dark nights are lighted by a full moon accompanied
by flickering white stars on a sky painted in indigo blue.
It’s easy to feel happy
when my fridge is filled
with exactly the healthy foods I wanted to eat
when our kid is doing well at school
and his cheeks are blossomed healthy pink from playing in fresh air.
It’s easy to feel happy when happiness meets me right where I am.
When the roses has shriveled
their smell only history
and the nights became nothing but dark and cold?
Those days where I ad up the groceries to stay on budget
our kid is glued to the screen of a horrible video game
and I feel I’ve failed in so many ways?
What about those days where nobody seems to talk about?
Where the darkness weights to heavy on my shoulders
and I see nothing but a greyish wall blocking a vision I once so clearly had?
How can I nourish love and understanding, when inside of me a voice is screaming to turn the fuck off that tv?
How can I keep my trust
can I keep breathing
can I stay fully present
without knowing, without sight, without even a spark brighten my inside?
By holding on to the believe
that behind this curtain of grey fog
there still is Light
there still is Meaning
there still is Beauty.
Like the sun rises everyday.
And that I,
that you beautiful human being,
because we are okay,
in our own wonderful, complex, imperfect and unique ways.
With love & pleasure, Wenske